Once again, she gave a man her whole heart. And the pain of his departure was no less than in times past. The only difference this time was she made a choice. She didn’t FALL in love, she deliberately and openly chose to love him with all the love God had given her. Without attachment to the outcome and without illusions of what she may gain in return, she loved him. So her pain, she realized, was only a shadow from the past. It was her ego trying its best to take her into a low place where blame and disappointment could cloud her mind and the pain could turn her love to hate. She saw this for what it was, and with the grace God gave her, she turned away from these emotions, feeling them all the while, and she chose to continue to love in letting go.